it’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to

I know today’s blog is supposed to have a farming theme, but I’ve got more important stuff to get off my chest.

For the first time in my life I’m nervous about my birthday tomorrow. Twenty-two seemed irrelevant when it hit because I was already 21 and nothing else mattered- except that I was appreciative to be out of the 21-club. When you’re a teenager, 21 is so incandescent and you can’t wait to get there- it’s not until you actually make it to 21 that you realize how immature of an age it really is. It’s like you get your bar-pass and automatically have a reason to go out and be completely carefree. Pretty sure I may or may not have even used the term “YOLO.” Thank God that term can also mean you’re only 21 once…

Then you look forward to 22 so you’re no longer grouped with the rowdy and juvenile 21-ers. I welcomed the 22 birthday candles with open arms knowing that I was now a ripened “of-ager.” And now 23 looms…

When I was a kid I always assumed that I would get married when I was 23. It wasn’t that it sounded “old” per say, but it was definitely getting up there. It was beyond college and as far as I could see, it was when I would be the perfect age for marriage. (Luckily I have found someone that I wouldn’t mind spending the rest of my life with, making this epiphany more bearable…otherwise I might be crying in my keyboard right now.) As if somehow I saw 23 as the magic number to be an official grown up.

I somehow feel like I put a cap on my youth at 23 during my childhood. And tomorrow will mark the day that it’s officially over. In my mind I will have forever lost my child-card and will no longer be able to visit the fountain of youth. So in true form, when asked what I wanted most for my birthday, I wished for new tires on my bicycle and a swing. And I’m getting them both. Ha! Take that adulthood!

Thankfully, I have found that they do no ask for an age when ordering a Happy Meal. The fountain of youth can be found in Olay Regenerist facial lotion. And Jager bombs. You can wear outrageous (not skanky) clothing without being questioned as long as you call it “high fashion.” And you can climb trees as long as you call it “exercise.”

I know that my youth isn’t actually being taken from me. I am just having a hard time realizing that my childhood self was wrong. And that’s another thing I have a hard time admitting…

Instead of singing Taylor Swift’s song “22” and being so exciting about being 22, I guess the actual  lyrics “I’m feeling 22…” will be more true in that I’ll actually only feel 22. But Taylor beat me to the 23 club three months ago so I don’t feel so bad. It’s also an extra bummer when my last 4 birthday’s fell on Spring Break…this one fell on a Tuesday. Which, to a grown person translates to: a regular ole work day.

While sitting at my desk today, on another regular ole work day, a huge storm blew in and hail started to fall in buckets. I got a little afraid that God heard me say that I didn’t want to be 23 and took me seriously…so I had to retract that statement completely. Now I am just anxious about it.

I guess I’ll get there when I get there. Tomorrow. Or in 7 hours and 37 minutes to be exact. Working on changing my attitude in the meantime…

TWENTY-THREE HERE I COME! YOU BETTER GET READY FOR ME BECAUSE YOU AND I ARE GOING TO BE NOTHING LIKE I HAD PLANNED! HELL’S COMING AND HER YOUTH IS COMING WITH HER!

How was that?

Love always,

Addie

“Never regret getting older. It’s a blessing denied to many.” -Unknown

I’d be barefoot earlier in the spring

After going with Alex to have his eyes sliced on for LASIK surgery and having my neck twisted into a near paralytic state by the chiropractor (totally worth it, by the way), I can honestly say that the scariest thing I experienced in the entirety of last week was hearing that whales have boogers. And they can sneeze.
I was cruising along only halfway paying attention to the radio, dreaming that I was on spring break like the rest of my current college friends, when a lady began telling her story of her own vacation. I started paying a bit more attention since I was so relevant to my current state of wishing. She and her boyfriend had taken a boat off the shore to do a little fishing when they came upon a whale! They ran to the side of the boat and watched as he began to surface again. Once he reached the top, he sneezed. The lady thought that it was just water that sprayed her from the sneeze, but she was wrong. Oh so wrong. Instead, she ended up covered in boogers. Whale sized boogers. And that is a very scary thought.

Not only is it the Monday after my least favorite day light savings time, it’s also the first Monday of Spring Break- of which I am no longer allowed to participate since I decided to become a grown up this year. I finally am making enough money to go on a trip without going into debt and I’m not even invited. Thanks for adding insult to injury, big girl world. Oh yeah, and it’s raining. The only thing I want to do is crawl back into bed and somehow detox myself of social media for the rest of the week so I don’t have to feel the “fear of missing out syndrome” every time a beachy picture is posted and hashtagged “#SB2013”….one that I’ll never get to post. I am trying to live vicariously through my luckier friends but instead it’s turned into a sickness that I’m now quenching with orange juice, new sunglasses, and trips to the tanning bed. Not exactly the same as a cocktail on the beach.

But despite the rain today, it’s not too bad down here in Mississippi. We had a spectacular weekend with temperatures in the mid 70’s. I tried to purchase a lounge chair from the Dollar General down the road to get a little “vacation” of my own, but they didn’t have them in stock yet. And honestly, I don’t have a discreet place to really lounge at the house…I’d be more or less laying out right off the corner of a major highway. Maybe I can pretend the roar of the cars and semis are actually the roaring waves. Yes, I like this plan. And since I’m not ever very good at “springing forward”, I didn’t make it to church on Sunday, but Alex and I took the dogs for a ride around the farm (technically Alex took me and the dogs…) so I guess you can say I got my sermon by taking in and appreciating all of God’s creation and the welcoming of a new season- all from my favorite passenger seat with a good cup of coffee and no shoes.

My daily bible verse this morning also helped bandage my wounded, no Spring Break, overslept spirit: “This is My COMMANDMENT- be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you WHEREVER YOU GO.” – Joshua 1:9
I love the exclamation point in that verse and wanted to add one after every sentence in the verse, but I guess I don’t exactly get to punctuate what God says…so I’ll just compensate by putting words in all caps and bold.

Wishing you all a well and beachy week! If you’re ever having a dull moment, I would usually suggest dreaming of being on Spring Break…however that seems to only aid in my frustration. So instead, appreciate that SPRING HAS SPRUNG and it’s getting warmer and the days are getting longer. Hallelujah!

Now let’s go see if the Dollar General store has received a shipment of lounge chairs yet so we can set them up by the road and really feel beachy. Just beware of flying sneezes…whales have boogers, so I can now assume that other large animals do as well. At least Alex has perfect vision now and can help me spot them…and my back and neck have been adjusted so much that I could probably do a few flips in celebration of it all…..but let’s not get too crazy.

Love always,

Addie

“If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances. I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.” – Nadine Stair